God's calling to produce many seeds Key verse: John 12:24 "I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds." I. Life remaining only a single seed I was born in July 19, 1970 at Kuri, Kyonggi located at the suburbs of Seoul. My parents are UBF shepherd Isaac and Kye-Ja Koh, and I am the eldest among their one son and three daughters. My grandfather was the only son, so are my father and I. My family lived with my grandparents. My grandfather passed away when I was four years old and my grandmother had lived up to 1996. My grandparents had loved me much. My parents used to commute to Seoul to serve a UBF center there. Soon after I entered an elementary school there, we moved into Seoul. At first, we lived in the second floor of an alcohol pub. I was transferred to another school, and began to go to church. After moving three more times in Seong-Dong Ku, Seoul, our lives became stable. We, my grandmother, my parents, my three sisters and I, lived in a big room. Maybe my parents had had much prayer for my three sisters and me and had been interested in educating us. In my early years of my elementary school, father bought me bibliographies one by one; Alexander the Great, Julius Caesar, Napoleon Bonapart and Abraham Lincoln. In my middle school years, my father encouraged me to study English and helped me to memorize the English textbooks. When he said to me. Hey boy, memorize it now. Then I would murmur. "Mr. Squirrel, Be careful. Oh, Mr Rabbit~~~" Often my father would not spare the rod to instruct me. Always my parents were busy, leaving home to go to the UBF center in the morning and coming back late in the evening. So we were usually taken care of by my grandmother, who was very diligent. Though we were poor, the sacrificial attentions given by my grandmother and my parents didn't allow me to feel needy. When I was in my second year of my middle school, our family moved from Seoul into Chongju, 100 miles south of Seoul. Sudden environmental changes left me bewildered and at a loss. Curiosity about woman's body arose in me. In Chongju UBF, some women were disciplined while sleeping together during the preparation period of a summer bible conference. I would sneak into the room and would inappropriately touch some women while they were sleeping until my act was revealed. From that time on, a couple of testimonies have been written to solve my inner struggle and to help me to live a righteous life. But I couldn't. So instead of writing testimonies, a diary became my own estate of confessing my inner sufferings during my middle school and high school years. Two and a half years later after we had moved in Chongju, my family moved again from Chongju to Suwon, approximately 30 miles south of Seoul. Then I was a freshman in my high school and remained in Chongju to live in a boarding house. Freedom was given but soon it became not a pleasure but rather a burden to me. I longed to share my daily stories with someone. After I had graduated from my high school in1989, an extra two years was needed for me to enter Seoul National University in 1991. After my short term military service in 1991, I had been in Kwan-Ak I UBF serving SNU students from 1993 to 1995. I had joined the meetings, sometimes as a sing spiration leader, a presider in Sunday worship services and a family meeting leader in my senior year. But I didn't know Jesus nor the salvation from him. My testimonies had been formal. I used to satisfy my sexual desire and solve my stress by touching woman's breasts in commuting trains, buses. I also had been immersed in human conflicts. I couldn't find any clue for my inner troubles. After my graduation from SNU in Feb. 1996, I continued my study at the master's course in the chemical technology department and came back from Kwan-Ak I to Suwon UBF. At that time I was 25 years old already. During the first semester of my master course, several thoughts had irritated me. "Why did I enter this department, why did I decide to specialize in this topic? And what is my favorite thing?" Until then, I had been dependent on other people, sometimes my parents and then my shepherds. It seemed that I had decided in a few cases on my own will. Then I got deeply depressed. II. Life producing many seeds My depression drove me to want to get salvation. Group Bible Studies with my father in Suwon UBF helped me to come to Jesus. Little by little Gods words worked in my heart. On an introduction time of a Summer Bible Conference, I said that I would like to know Jesus and his Cross. At the conference, I looked up my eyes to see Jesus on the Cross. At the next 1998 Summer Bible Conference, God gave me a lot grace. For the first time in my life, I could stand in front of Jesus and hear the voice of Jesus, but who do you say I am? No other things, my parents, any human condition and even myself, could interrupt between Jesus and me. I answered sincerely, You are the Christ. From that time on, God have worked on me on the basis of that confession. I got to realize my sinful nature and admitted it. I took everything I had for granted. Therefore, I didn't know grace and thanksgiving. But I came to realize my parents love for me. I had been afraid of my father and full of repulsion to him. Step by step I came to understand and love him. I am an unrighteous and useless servant. But God have led me in his good will and blessed me abundantly. I got to married a shepherdess, Shinetga S. Koh in Feb. 1998 under the prayers and blessing of about a thousand shepherds, relatives and my friends at Chong-Ro UBF center for the first time after its construction. I realized that my coworker was really a Rebekah in Genesis 24. God gave me two sons after that. One, David Koh, is 18 months old and the other, Paul Koh, only one month old. Missionary Jacob and Esther Lee visited Suwon UBF and delivered their life testimonies in late 1997. Then missionary Esther Lee invited me to UMCP, saying "Lets see again at Maryland campus." I applied to 20 universities early this year. The Dept. Chemical Engineering at UMCP answered first among them, offering a full scholarship to me. I accepted it with pleasure. God sent me to this land as a missionary last Monday on the eagles wing. I began my new life here by joining the 2000 East Coast Summer Bible Conference last week and daily bread meetings this week. Through that, God has led me to have clear priorities and directions for my missionary life here. God first, human second and material third. I pray that consistently doing daily bread and testimony may make me live a life of a kernel of wheat. God's disciplines have been teaching me to be independent and aggressive in my life and research. I pray also that I will be a missionary of independence and aggressiveness. I pray I will learn from Washington UBF and cowork humbly. I pray I will finish my ph. D within four years and raise an American sheep to be a disciple within my ph. D course. One word: Praise be to the Lord who has led me and will lead my life for producing many seeds.